08/31/26 MCR Denver & School Starting

Starting off with the biggest part of my whole year so far, I went to a My Chem show (☆▽☆)!! In my last blog I talked abt how I managed to get tickets just a week b4 the concert. Im gonna b honest, I was so nervous something would come up and I wouldn't be able to go to the show, but nothing did!! And I got to go!! It was so damn incredible. We stayed at my grandparents house b4 the show bcs they live near Denver, and I'm ngl it just becomes more of a struggle to go there with them being maga n all,, but other than that I seriously had the best time ever. We got to the venue (Coors Field) and there was barely a line so we got in pretty much right away. The Breeders were the opening band and they were awesome sauce. My heart started racing so much when the "rules" started showing on the creens and we all collectively realized it was a MOAT show. Like all the other shows, it started with the Draag national anthem followed by The End and Dead! When they took the lil photo thing they were all standing to politely, which is pretty much a first (bugs when u lift up a rock). Oh my gosh, singing Welcome to the Black Parade with such a huge crowd of people was so damn cool, I was lowkey getting emotional. I was also,,, confused AF when Gerard grabbed that ugly ass baby (Edward??) instead of the gentleman. During Blood, when Gee would normally stab the patient, it was the clown instead.. and they stabbed each other o(^▽^)o! I have so many theories lore wise but I can't put them into cohesive words LOLZ. The b-stage was also amazing, that setlist was MADE FOR ME I swear. Three danger days songs and boy division (+ the rest of the songs they played),,, it could not get any better than that. (except if they MIRACULOUSLY somehow played Early Sunsets). But overall, the show was the coolest thing ever and I'm still wrapping my head around the fact that I got to actually go. (*^_^*)

School started a week ago. It's a high school with a different cirriculum than most schools, built around supporting mostly neurodivergent kids and etcetera. I thought it would be great for me, since throughout high school I've struggled immensely. But ngl, it sucks so far. maybe there's just something in my blood that just, like, makes me allergic to school. Every time I step in the damn building I start sweating even tho I'm cold as hell, and my legs and back immediately hurt. It's also just hard to make the right friends in such a tiny ass school. IDK, I'm trying to give it a chance. Maybe something will improve. But so far, I've already been misgendered more times than I can count and I'm just miserable the whole day. I just gotta romanticise TF outta this school year or else I'm not gonna make it out alive ╮（╯＿╰）╭

I'm gonna try to blog more often again, I've been losing motivation but I think it's a really good way to keep track of my days and get some things off my chest.

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