10:36pm, Sept 29th

My "friend" has been trying to crap talk about me to my friends, which is stupid because obviously I will hear it because my friends actually like me. But, it obviously upsets me. 

She takes EVERY action and sentence I say to heart, even when I'm obviously joking and ignores my boundaries. 

But, I also dropped my over the top tone and stuff like that today during school because I was too tired to project my emotions in a 'normal person' typa way, and a few of my friends took it as me being upset, 

which I am not surprised about.

I grew up with my mom, dad, and most of my family telling me I sound like I have attitude or sound angry whenever I did do that around people. 

But it made me upset because I don't want people to think I'm mad when I'm not, like she did today, because it can cause conflict and create uncomfortable and unnecessary tension between friends, which I DON'T want. 

I don't wanna be seen as sensitive, or angry, but learning that she was talking about me makes me really uncomfortable to be around her.

How can I stand to be around someone who talks about me in such a negative way without talking to me about it or communicating with me? 

It's disappointing, I thought I have been getting easier to talk to and communicate with but apparently not.