1st days on pedagogic lyceum, no1 gaf abt me + cool guy

So I chose this school because I expected it to be the laziest and most accepting. Most of the subjects are related to psychology or art and that's really chill, especially compared 2 other abysmally boring and difficult schools. 

Anygays I went on the train, trying 2 find a seat that's empty. When I found one, I sat there, but there was a jirai kei girl so short that I didn't see her head. She had an ita bag of scaramouche so I thought we could talk. Turns out she is a second year in the same school. I 4got her name so let's call her jirai. Jirai said she has a friend, we'll call her gothic, on the next bus who is repeating the year because "things happened". I didn't pry in2 it no more and on the bus she initially seemed kinda nice. I told her my preferred name, "Ren" and she asked 4 pronouns. I told her I'd go by he/him, but I failed to transition because a psychiatrist told me 2 fucc off with that. So she just said she'll call me like that anyway, that it doesn't matter, be who u want. By the time 

Then we sat 2gether in class but she found a really cool grungy artistic friend. Gothic sat somewhere else with her, just like the other cool person that was there, it was a girl with blue hair and she seemed really chill. And now she's really popular and not willing to talk to me. Like she doesn't talk to me, ever. Now she has friends all round her. All the students have, in fact. Except me, because my (I guess) dumbass relied on her and she ditched me.

Idfk what did I do wrong tho. So now I have nobody 2 go outside with. 2 talk 2 during breax. Just the phone and the Count Your Blessings CD is the closest I have to feel accompanied. 2 feel understood. I guess at sum point I'll find sum friends. Maybe som1 will b sitting alone on lunch and I'll sit with them (just like in those sitcoms for tweens that I actually lowk like but if I admit so to any of my irl og school friends, I'm afraid they will look down upon me a little 4 that, cuz eugh I'm too old being 16 and liking shi like that? Sigh, they probably wouldn't do that cuz they kewl but here I got nobody.

Random thing but like as of writing this I see a really cool looking guy with baggy jeans, a very baggy Metallica tee and those fluffy Converse shoes, 2nd day streak of him having the coolest fit in the whole time I go through two whole cities. I wanna b friends w/ him but he's really tall so he could be 2 old for me? He doesn't look 20 tho, 19 at best. I really wanna get 2 know him cuz maybe he's chill af. But idk if I can or should pull it off, gimme a hint, Friendrewind. He looks really cool. And his hair! HIS HAIR! It's so awesome but he's still passing I want him 2 teach me his methods!