#3

I really thought I was starting to feel a bit better I was happy for a good second then it all came back I don't wanna look at my phone my chest feels so heavy it hurt I feel scared again my mom left me all alone again I just don't know what to do some more stuff happens today well also last night I thought letting in a old person from my past was a good idea I just wanted to see the good it them yet it all came crashing down my other friend got targeted while all this was happening I feel so bad for her and I feel sorry yet I wanna comfort her more then I have been my head just hurts that person reminded me i'm always just a damn option and it's been like that for so damn long and I'm tired of this I don't wanna be seen just as some random girl people can just forget about and talk badly behind my back I hate it so much I really have been trying to heal and with all this creepy shit STILL going on I just feel so stressed I was doing good what the hell happened I don't wanna say how I feel because it's all so weird to me feeling scared in my own home then feeling sad because I don't wanna be seen as a option

I'm so stressed that feeling of being watched is also creeping back into me and its creeping me the hell out it's one thing to be sad but scared it a whole other thing it's mid day which is really weird I never feel this unsafe and it's bothering me badly I have not slept all night due to stress so I'm overly tired yet I'm trying so hard to keep my eyes open what if there is someone really watching me and they like kill me in my sleep I feel so weak.