31/10/26 ݁˖ꫂ❁

My first blog post not being an intro is maybe weird but being sick and laying around gets me to think about alot </3, right now its just alot about feeling like im not being productive enough. I try alot to sit down and do things, and I just dont understand how people get so much done but for me if one little part of my routine is delayed or is out of place I cant get anything done for hours. Im working on it, on being able to not let little obstacles ruin my entire plans or things I need to do for a day. I know its not a productive or mature way to be, letting little issues ruin my whole routine, but I dont know why im like that and I cant help it 

Still, I feel like its getting just a little bit better in that sort of...area. Like, instead of not getting work done at all if it gets pushed back by other things I only slightly procrastinate before still eventually getting things done. That feels alot better and alot more productive than doing nothing at all. Doing nothing just makes me feel worse and then even more nothing gets done 

This is mostly what I want to use blog posts on here for. Not really diary-like (cause i dont do much) but just thoughts and things 🛌💤