6.10.26 my life as an apparition

hello all, i apologize for the brief hiatus..

recently i have been feeling very transient, and not unlike a passenger on a train without a true destination. cigarettes and coffee (therapeutic distraction) punctuate my mornings, evenings.

there are truly mundane joys that appear like embossing from beneath when your surface is planed by the endless days. you could discover how beautiful you can sometimes feel while high, or how well you perform your favorite song in the car alone.

there was a friend i was fighting with over something very stupid in hindsight.. i still wonder how that may affect our friendship going forward and i'm very worried. the silver lining, of course, is that you can come home, slam a bottle of wine by yourself and smoke a pack crying to your roommate about it.

some people can't do that.

but for an expert like me...