7/18/06 || MY MOM IS RUINING MY LIFE

god im so fucking emo. my mom just reminded me why i hate having friends over. shes always embarassing me on purpose, she says its not on purpose but ik shes lying bc i always tell her not to and she still fucking does it. and when i try to subtly let her know to stop she cant take a fucking hint god she is stupid. i feel so bad saying all that bc shes the one that buys me all my cds and alesana stuff and like she surprises me with alesana stuff pretty often, and now i sound like a spoiled brat. i swear im not ok, its just like just bc she buys me stuff doesnt mean shes automatically a good person, she is still the main source of all my trauma and i think she thinks if she buys stuff for me it'll fix our relationship, but honestly i dont even wanna fix it, i just accept stuff from her cuz im a selfish bitch. to be fair, she has definitely changed in the past few years and shes a much better mom now, except now i dont need her anymore. where was this when i was little huh!? whatever anyway she always argues with my dad in front of my friends or shares embarassing stuff about me just to get a laugh out of them. and she wonders why i never have friends over. fuck my life bro. i sound so emo i dont care