7/29/26

Tonight feels ok too. Work was pretty decent even if my coworker pissed me off (don't talk to me like that?!?!) and I had a mild embarrassment. My coworker (cool as fuck, into hxc, really nice) had an extra energy drink and let me have it + forgave me for breaking the lanyard for his keys while we were fucking around (I still feel bad about that). It was the bad apple monster flavor? Tastes exactly like apple cider. It's awesome. I finally know every service area but I'm really hoping I can get a raise because I still make $10 an hour, less than pretty much all of my peers including the new guys. Brought it up to my manager like a week ago but I haven't heard back. I really like my coworkers but if I don't get a raise I might end up quitting. Maybe I should mention that actually, threaten to quit or whatever. But we have so much turnover I don't know if it'd mean anything. I really do need better pay if I want to move out in a timely manner.

We got some peach vodka from a family friend (by accident somehow) and it still tastes like cleaner, of course, it's vodka, but it has the best aftertaste of any alcohol I've ever consumed, other than the stuff that tastes like straight juice or sprite or whatever. For high proof alcohol it's good. I only had a shot or two because I have work tomorrow afternoon and I just didn't feel like getting really fucked up especially alone. I kind of wonder if I already smoke too much, like a hit after work 3-5 days a week, but since I can go without and be totally fine I think my use is OK all things considered... Working at the Fuck Me Sideways factory kind of mandates that anyway. No I didn't end up practicing guitar today, go figure, but once this wears off i might give it a go. I know I really should. Easier said than done I guess. Maybe I should try a reward system of some kind just to get myself started, I've never been good at building habits. Many habits need to be established... Doing anything every day is such a pain.

Listening to Vaya tonight by the way. Not a single skip on this album god it's so fucking phenomenal. ATDI such a way of evoking emotion while making the catchiest shit you've ever heard. I really want to make something this good someday maybe more than anything. Crazy.... I need the CD so bad. I'm afraid to look at prices though. All my favorite albums sell for like $200 on ebay or some shit. If I were rich... If i were rich...

Also there's only a month until my trip to CO, which is my first solo flight ever and my first time out of state without a parent or guardian. I trust my best friend with my life, I have money, hotel and flights are paid for and sorted, but that doesn't stop me from worrying. Like somehow getting stranded, somehow running out of funds, stuff like that. I'm tempted to put airtags on literally everything valuable. As excited as I am to see my chem, I am a little bummed that pit tickets were like $800 so we're in the nosebleeds. I am very much excited, it's just kind of depressing that one of my favorite bands is selling. $800 concert tickets.It's kind of ridiculous. You're already multi millionaires, what the hell? But I know I'll have a lot of fun and meet other fans and there's a lot of other things to be excited about. Like the aquarium up there, botanical gardens, seeing the mountains, buying cool shit, maybe meow wolf?, museums, yknow. Plus 5 days away from home, a taste of independence, most importantly seeing my best friend face to face for the first time. We've been friends for I think 2 or 3 years now and I'm really looking forward to seeing him. And like hitting him or something. Also I wanna swim in the hotel pool lol.

Not much else to talk about here right now. Really just enjoying my At the Drive-In... Cedric I could kiss you. TTYL.