8/14/26

So much happens and yet nothing at all

I picked up my guitar and set a goal but quickly failed at enforcing a daily practice. I feel generally unmotivated lately but I think its on account of mostly having a few bad days and getting in my head about it. I have to remember that there is reprieve coming;

I'm thinking I'll have the most fun week of my life so far pretty soon. 8 days off work away from home with my best friend doing pretty much exclusively fun stuff. I don't think it'll be totally stress free since its my first time flying alone and my first time being so far away from my household without family, but I have a decent financial cushion and I think my best friend is a bit more well versed in this stuff(?). I'm seeing my favorite band, I'm going to see natural wonders and history, no work or parents or anything of that sort. Something about me is that i've never seen a true mountain in my entire life with my own eyes. I'm pretty stoked about that in itself. We have really good seats at my chem too (stage left by the way -- also stoked to see the natural wonder of ray toro). So i have nothing to worry about. :)

Unrelated but I think I might get a flip phone. CAT S22 specifically. I have broken every cell phone I've ever owned well before its time had come. Not usually as severely as the 2 I use now though. One is a few years old and the screen is broken with insides showing. The other is about a year old and i recently entirely fucked the screen, it jitters, it spazzes the fuck out every time you have the brightness above minimum, it turns green? I dont know. The former will probably be way cheaper to repair but my family is still paying off the second one. Frankly I dont know why they gave me it considering my track record... Anyway if i get this flip phone i can use the same sim card and the S22 comes with a headphone jack adapter. Its target consumer is construction workers first responders ETC so HOPEFULLY I will have a really hard time destroyiing it. It's like $180? Which is a very good price but i honestly dont have that right now so it may have to wait... like a month. Thats a blessing in disguise, ill see how much i still want it.

Theres so much i need to buy. I need to get my cat to the vet for her shots, need to get contacts, i really should be saving more aggressively too but i have a spending problem. Everything is so expensive now, that and theres always something i want. $5 in snacks/beverages per day is $150 a month, good God!!!