"i don't do well with change" has always been a funny thing that people say. pretty much everyone says it, because none of us do well with change, but the sentence implies that others do, and not doing well with change is abnormal. we all want change, but dread it at the same time. but why are we so afraid of change?
in february i moved back home. from dc back to colorado. i ended a long term relationship this year and moved back to the hometown i got away from after 5 years. when i was moving from colorado to dc in 2021, i was extremely excited for the change. i was young and impulsive and decided to welcome the change of moving 1500 miles away. this time around, i am still welcoming the change but it's not as fun or as exciting. the change this time was painful, necessary, and took much more thought. everything changed. i uprooted my entire life and came back to a family that has all changed while i was gone, but i also came back changed.
people change. places change. feelings change. every single thing in life changes. change is necessary. it isn't always optional, but there are times you can choose or seek it out. i think it's beautiful that something so terrifying can also be the best thing to happen to someone. i'm waiting for more changes and hoping for better ones.
(will probs delete this later but thanks for reading if you did)
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medeuxsa
This is helping me think about the kinds of change. I always imagine me changing my mindset toward change, but the same changes may carry totally different meanings over time. Thank you for sharing!