A dead fairy

Gosh im so tired about my city. I live in a small one and is so difficult to find ur clothe's style. I personally gotta go to other city or buy online to get the clothes i want, but sometimes its imposible. I wanna dress how i like, not how everyone else is dressing like, i want my own style and my own me.

The only way i can get what i want is going alone to buy, but i cant! in some stores i need to enter with my parents or they will think im stolling... Its so hard living in here, i wanna go away and never come back.

I feel bad, i dont even have a boyfriend, everyone knows everyone and its hard as hell find someone who isnt with the girl every man has been. Or to find a good man whos never has cheaten on someone-

Im so tired of school, im so tired of waking up at 5 am just to study 8 hours straight and then go to my house and clean it by myself, not even my room, all the house. I know some of those are my responsabilities and if they ask me good i will do them, but why every day? and why only me? 

Somedays i jst wanna lay on my bed all day listening music. Being me.