Abuser getting away with it

We want to start off with - we know that all of the stuff we want to do is objectively wrong and we shouldn't do it 

Anyways

We get so mad all the time because our abuser has people around him who support him even though he abused us, knowingly standing with him when they know he hurt us, because why would you stand with someone who admitted to abusing someone, even if they're trying to change?? Why would you knowingly choose to support someone who caused another to attempt more than once?? It's just nonsensical to us

And the worst part is, we didn't and still don't have a lot standing with us, our abuser told everyone he knew that we abused him and then started to indirectly bully us online

Sometimes we want to tell everyone we know that he abused us, that he hurt us so much we tried to take our own life because we thought we didn't deserve to live, we know that's wrong of course, that would only cause problems for us since our abuser is so #healing apparently 

But we really want to make him feel even a fraction of what we felt, what we still feel, we were pushed into horrific psychosis for a month straight goddamnit - can we not have a shred of selfish respite? 

It's so unfair that he gets people around him, again why would you willingly associate with someone who abused someone? Just like rapists and murderers, they are very much statistically more likely to hurt someone else, I don't get why someone would willingly associate with someone like that.

I guess this is selfish of us to say, a childish tantrum because we do not have it 'fair', as if life is so for everyone else. 

Please do not think of us as childish or selfish for this, I suspect this is a product of the trauma inflicted upon us, I am exceedingly sorry to anyone who sees us as nothing but a petulant child 

Regards- Yarrow 

(P.s: someone was confront for the most of this, I do not know whom though)