AGJH

ive been missing some appointments and I have no idea what theyre about😓 im feeling really worried that I missed my autism assessment (ive been on a list for about a year) and I still get really anxious about going to the clinic (tiny town so they handle everything) and I do get appointment slips but there's no details at all🥲 is it jo over for me help

I do need to talk to someone about my meds (they said they'd check in in a month but ive heard no word) so im wondering if im gonna have to call it quits eventually😞 I think ive only noticed less of my really distressing thoughts and im also managing my eating/tidiness better but im gonna be honest I just think that there may be integral things wrong with me😿I assumed a lot of my weirdness would fade away with the pills but IM STILL A FREAKKK AHHHHHH

on the bright side of things I think I might be gaining weight after all😸 I haven't weighed myself in a bit (no scales in the house because everyone's got an issue for some reason) and im so dead curious. obvi I shouldn't get my hopes up but I am😼 

I wanted to keep track of my kitty's weight too since I want him to drop a few (he's fat😿) and im determined to keep him healthy for as long as possible😾 ive been playing with him a lot more lately so hopefully it helps him lose🙏he's actually still as athletic as ever (surprisingly) and he scares me half to death when we're having supervised yard time and he scales the freaking wall. he's not THAT age yet but im gonna be so sad when he starts showing signs of age😿 I can't bear it I do think about him and cry sometimes even though he's fine

I think I'll go to the doctors on Monday and see about rescheduling my heart stuff and do some snooping [asking directly] on what I missed😿okbye