alienated in my own head

Hello everyone, I know it's been a while since I've made a post, and honestly there are so many reasons why, but there's not enough space to update anyone. I'll just start recently. I've started therapy, and it's very confronting of emotions I've hidden for a while. Confronting the hurt and anguish I've felt it; I don't know if I'll heal from it. I'm in pain a lot of the time. Every single day is antagonizing pain that I cannot get rid of and simply don't know how to. I want it to stop, all of it, but to heal, it's to endure. I have to endure this because I want to be better. I want to be comfortable again, and if I have to endure the thoughts that hurt the confusion, I will. I'll endure it all.

xoxo' D3ad