I never struggled this much with speaking as a kid.
it's not all the time because I overshare well enough with the friends I do have, but out loud or in public online spaces? no. maybe it's because of what social media is now? how it's evolved into a messy goo of apathy and meaninglessness, and in my mind I feel like adding to the noise isn't helpful or relieving in anyway.
you try, but you're speaking among thousands of copy&pasted voices (modern day chainmail), profiles of people who aren't even real and faces that can be created within seconds. people, including myself, seek authenticity and we know when something resonates with us, but it's getting more difficult and man that sucks. it's like we're stranded in a sea of things that only know how to pretend (how uncanny).
it is so demoralizing.
I can't blame social media for all of it though, I used to be really loud (as I've taken to say all the time, I'm a leo moon~) and engaging never seemed to be an issue for me, I loved to yap and chat and make friends, go out on random adventures and figure it out along the way, but that's not something I do anymore, and I don't know if it's something I can get back to, but I'd love to try.
so.. hopefully, with this I can acclimate to getting there again, if people follow along, welcome, I appreciate it! I was a little wary with the blog bit at first, even as I'm writing this I'm not too sure if I'm going to post it, cause of the speaking and vulnerability of it all and whatnot, but enjoy~
I will disclaim that I care a negative amount about writing in perfect grammar, I swap between caps/no caps etc, it's really whatever (everything's made up anyway, just do what you want).
I can't type for too long today because I have an errand to run, buuuut aha!
I did it!~
jess
to add: I've been using the public layouts, ty to who makes them, I have to basically relearn code and I was never too good at it to start, so these are greatly appreciated~
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Cysper04
Hm, yeah I do agree with you.
I think that's a huge problem with Major Social Network Websites like "Facebook", "Twitter" (now "X".) and others nowadays.
But hopefully here on "FriendRewind" that wouldn't be a thing.... But so far here people seemed to be pretty chill and mature.
And things here seemed to be quite organic which is what I absolutely liked here.
And on top of that, I absolutely liked the Mid 2000's - Late 2000's Internet Aesthetic and Vibes here which is pretty cool along with nice customizations that unfortunately the Major Social Network Websites I mentioned no longer offer that was being offered by websites like "MySpace".
So yeah, I think you can freely speak out here and share whatever you want and I'm open to listen. :)
yeah it's good people here from what i can tell:] 100% agree with you on the organic bit, there's authenticity with folks here i find (crazy what the lack of pressure of algos do lol)
and thank ya! i'm glad to have you here~
by majesstiqe; ; Report
Yeah, and I'm really glad on the community here so far and it's super chill here.
And, yeah.... No Problem, I'm glad to have you here too. :)
by Cysper04; ; Report
tellmesecrets
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I feel that. Social media as it is today has made me weary about posting much. The measuring stick of likes has made me second guess myself. People on Reddit, Facebook, etc love my comments but generally my posts don't make traction. This platform, which lacks algorithmic sorting is much nicer for saying what I think and feel.
oh absolutely, last year i learned a lot about growing socmed and it's so icky, and a lot of stuff feels really disingenuous, being on here is very much a more authentic vibe, it feels like a playground rather than a stage, you know?
by majesstiqe; ; Report
sueños
Best of luck to you.
I hope you're able to find your voice again.
I agree with you that the internet (social media, specifically) can feel like a demoralizing place. Not just because of all the regurgitated crap and fakeness but also bc people can be really mean so it's hard to be open and vulnerable. Screenshots are forever, and nowadays people have very little grace for personal growth.
thank you~
and absolutely. it gets so exhausting reading even just comment sections because there's no room for nuance (and ofc that bleeds into media and the whole purity culture with fiction).
it's truly insane out there.
by majesstiqe; ; Report