another poem

my heart beats around you because im fooled.

i think you love me but in reality im just a placeholder.

a placeholder because soon you will have the woman you yearn for.

i only accepted because i needed attention, i needed your lustful movements.

but once you leave i will mourn what i thought we had.

once you leave you will laugh at what we had, laugh at my stupidity.

i will dream of our relationship/relationships.

i will dream of better days.

i will dream of love not lust.

i will dream of when i get better.

but for now, you enjoy your time with her.

and ill pretend my next lustful relationship is true.