tw mentions of sh
i started sh at like 8 or 9 for no reason in particular. i think i was just really desperate to feel something and i wanted to rip my skin off so i just scratched and scratched until i bled. or just hit. during my first attempt i tried to use a knife after trying to stab myself i gave up cuz all the knifes were dull asf so around then i figured i could use it for cvtting. then i evolved to scissors, sharpeners and actual blades. i thought it was only matter of time until my family found out. i got worse and worse at hiding it. i was scared of their reactions but i thought maybe then they'd idk understand me more. which is ironic, they dont understand me bc im the one contantly lying to them lololl. long story short they havent found out, i'm 13 now. i cant tell if theyre in denial, are genuinely stupid, incredibly ignorant or just dont care. i think ive ranted abt this b4. this is just the only place i can rant in without my irls finding out. aughghhgh im so tired i hate this. i wanan swim. i cant wait to have free will. vbhtyrecfthbu.;l,ūbue5itfhbtew4kj whats wrong with me HAHAA SORRY FOR BEING SO GLOOMY LMAOOO its just summer and i hate summer aha:3
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idk If you still do it or not but even if you do or don't I'm really proud of you sweetie I know you don't know me but something that kinda helped me was knowing that people were proud even if I did it or I was clean if you ever need someone to talk to I will be here love ya
i barely do it during summer dw ill be fineee. but i do thank you, you seem very kind<3
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