Anyone else relate?

I don't like to self diagnose, firstly because I'm not a medical professional, but as of late I've taken to playing games by myself when some of my friends are online and available, but reaching out seems like such a monumental effort.. I don't want to call it a depression, but it feels like I've got some vague mental health problem. Some days I'm fine, and others are spent doomscrolling and bedrotting. It doesn't help that my best buddy is in the psych ward right now, so I can't even talk to him.