autism

well yesterday I got diagnosed with autism specturm disorder or ASD and it still doesn't feel real like I had a feeling that I had it but actually being diagnosed with it is so overwhelming not in a bad way obviously but like its not a bad thing but now that I'm really thinking about it I'm thinking like what if people see me different or treat me differently then I was before and it also says in the paper work that I should be monitored for anxiety and depressive symptoms which I think is gonna be very fucking easy because I'm anxious all the fucking time and for the depressive stuff it depends you know but I'm gonna start therapy on July 20 so I'm excited for that but I feel like the day of I'm gonna be very nervous and shaking a lot because that's how I was at my appointment yesterday lolz anyways I know this is a longer blog then normal but I just wanted to let everyone know that I have autism.