Bad day :( rant.

So today my cousin got released from prison and it was also my grandmas birthday so we had a party and it went so badlyyy. 

In the morning, everything was okay, my other cousins got here and i drank a bit i was having fun and then later on in the day when every guest got there i just could not stand them anymore, they smoked all over the house and my grandma hates the smell of smoke and its gonna take so long for the smell to get out, so that was the first thing that pissed me off, they were acting like the center of the world, those small dick egoists. 

Then when i went infront of the appartement with some of my cousins for less than an hour, when i got back my mom said "dont go out anymore", everybody in this fucking familly babies me, i cant stand it anymore, im gonna be 15 in a month and i cant even go to my aunts house who is on the fifth floor, do you realize??? Im 15 and i cant even breath. Anyway, then when the noise was becoming too much for me i asked my aunt for the keys to her house and they didnt want to give them to me, and they know that all i was gonna do was just watch tv but they still made me look all around the house for those damn keys! So i stayed a long time just watching tv and then my aunt came up to tell me to come down to eat the cake, so i come down and what do i see....

My uncle took one of my guitar (my favorite) and gave it to my other uncle to play... (he was good but thats not the point), he went into my room and took my guitar without asking me, this may seem like not a lot but i genuinly was shaking with anger, i have a few boundaries, do not go into my room or touch my things without my permission and i want people to respect them, and then when i went to his face to tell him that i was mad and that he shouldnt have took my guitar without asking he started insulting me and everybody was defending him, acting like i was the devil in person for being mad about a normal thing and speaking up. Those assholes in my familly act like a woman should never voice a boundary or get mad at a man, what am i? A playmobile to just stand there and shut my mouth?? They piss me off so bad. And that uncle is such a bum, he literally had a secret familly that we didnt find out about until three years ago, hes an alcoholic, hes a pervert, he says disgusting things about his daughters, he acts like he is the center of the world and every body actually bends over for him. Hes sleeping in the middle of the day? Dont even dare to breathe. He did something you didnt like? Shut up and go fuck urself. He touched his dick while children and his whole familly is in the room? What dick? What children?  

I was so mad all day, writing this helps take it out of my chest a little. Shout out to my cousin who helped me not open my wrists infront of them.

(Sorry for the mistakes) 

-JulytoSeptember