being bored of everyone, convinced im a manipulative asshole

I get bored of people easily, and I use them and then get them obsessed with me, and its really bad.  I mean, looking at it i feel like theres something off. I remember the things I've said, done, and do, and I really remind myself of the horrible people who have shaped my life. I am turning into someone I really rather not be. Im a liar, for one, and im manipulative and apathetic as hell. I genuinley used people. I feel shitty about it, though. Im not a complete sociopathic douche..  sorry for what I did. But they probally wont ever wish to speak to me again, and frankly I dont wanna say sorry straight up..so maybe thats a good thing.

bye, -colin