♡♡ BEING DISABLED FUCKING SUCKS

yapping about being disabled

being disabled genuinely fucking SUCKS ASS.
i genuinely hate how i am basically a burden to literally everyone around me purely for the fact that i exist and i need accommodations to function. communication feels like playing minesweeper. i do one wrong thing, even if its minor and suddenly im considered the literal devil.

growing up disabled was hell. especially if you grew up with siblings. because you know deep down that they will forever resent u for taking away the parents attention because of something you legitimately cant control and you grow up with with never ending sense of guilt. because ur parents had to work extra harder and u feel like youre burdening everyone. and dont get me STARTED on being in education. the constant bullying, the need to put on the oscar performance of a life time just to get through the day and you gotta do that everyday for the rest of your life, even with the people that you love and trust dearly with all your heart because the guilt and the fear of being rejected continues to eat you alive and tear you apart.