being funny seems like a superpower

i feel like it doesnt get talked about much -not that id know- but imagine being able to make someone smile.. or laugh just by being you ,  like how is that not basically a superpower?? i wish i was funny, id love to go around and make peoples day brighter!  i think about clowns and mimes and how their job is to go around and spread happiness and im like, i wish i could do that.

i used to want to be a mime or clown not too long ago but then i kept thinking about it and ive never been able to make someone genuinely laugh, ive only been able to be laughed at by others, especially when things go wrong., id be a terrible entertainer, im very monotone, very boring really,. i dont have a creative mind and it makes me sad. everyone i can think of is so funny and interesting and cool, all i can do is be nice. and im also awful at being nice too. not that im mean or something. i just keep doing things wrong. i wish i could give smiles to people, that would be a dream. thats all i would do everyday for the rest of my life