being happy in the face of stress

unironically, i learnt this important life lesson from that one picture on pinterest of vittorino from 8:11 smiling big af with the confetti everywhere with the laughing in the background. ive also been feeling a lot younger recently.. like.. actually my age. usually i feel like im ageless or at least 30 but i feel 12-14. not how i felt WHEN i was/am those ages, but how im actually MEANT to feel. not stressed, not growing gray hairs and not having digestive problems due to stress, but like a fucking. KID. i am a KID. a YOUNG TEEN. and i feel like one!

ive learnt to actually let myself feel joy and be silly despite the trauma ive went through. negativity has felt like my main state of being for so long, and while i dont deny that it still kinda is, im lighter and happier. im jolly. im fucking. JOLLY. ive grown, my birthday is coming up, im a better person. slightly. after seeing how holding onto my pent up resentment has hurt others, i dont really wanna have it anymore. so i just wont! im happy rn. dkeprogkerpof,epofekyayaayaauhsuasaususuuuaahahayayayauauuyaayhahaha