Better than u lolz

No because like I genuinely AM better than most people. Even if they are better at me academically, I'm still better than them, I just don't have the motivation for school, if I tried I would do way better than everyone else. I'm fucking amazing and nobody even cares. I want people to worship the ground I walk on. I wanna get spoiled with money and gifts simply because they think I'm amazing. I hate that in reality im really ugly and a complete loser. Like ow. How am I gonna have an ego and yet be ugly!! It doesn't make sense. I so badly want that kind of treatment. Idk. I hate this. If I was pretty enough I could start some discord cult or some loser shit to get the satisfaction, but im not. I'd genuinely kill to be treated so good. I think it's why I got myself gr00med multiple times, I wanna feel needed, like my existence alone runs their entire world.