Birthday

Okay so I forgot to update yesterday again.. But in my defense I was crying most of the evening. 

Yesterday wasn't really any thing spectacular, spent most of the day sleeping, writhing in pain and helping my mother a bit. Towards the end of the day I decided for whatever reason that it's a good idea to read through my old messaged with my best friend who hasn't spoken to me in months. And that's also what brought me to cry. 

It's my birthday today, I went with my mother to our hometown, got a lemonade from Popeyes and now I'm standing in the halls of the hospital while visiting my grandfather. They took him to get tests done, I really don't like the nurses here. He was asleep when we came in but clearly struggling to breathe. My mother asked if there's something they can do to make it easier for him to breath. All they did was respond with a sarcastic remark. 

Not to mention two nurses openly talked about how sick they are of their job while transporting a patient?? Like keep those convos for when you're in the break room? 

I get that being a nurse is stress full, I can't exactly understand it but I can understand it better than most since I had a two week placement in the hospital as a "nurse". Even though it was stress full I didn't say a single negative thing around patients. 

I just hope my grandfather is okay. 

-Angel