blaaaah

i need to find my will to live before i place my hopes and reason onto a person that isnt responsible for any of it. i hateeeeee the search, the pursuit for some spark or an itch, so i naturally lean towards the closest thing to a will, which is usually a person close to me. i cant do that. i cant let myself do that.

i should just kaboom. explode. though ive been thinking about that less lately

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