BLOG : OBSESSION.

I hate being obsessed with somebody. God, I want her to myself so bad. I don’t know why. We are so unhealthy for eachother. I have a boyfriend, she’s my ex. Yet, I crave her. 

I crave to be that man she seeks. Somebody to take care of her. Somebody she sees strength in. I hate being some weak little girl. Genderfluid or not,  nothing makes me that true man she wants. She wants a man with height, muscles, and a deep voice. Not a tranny that doesn’t know how to stop wearing push-up bras. I crave her so bad I’m not sure what to do. I just hope she sees something in me still. 

She told me before that she was obsessed with me. She’s always been. But recently, she’s been wanting men. Fucking hate it. I’m never a male enough for her. She can agree to call me by “he”, but it doesn’t make me any more of a man. I don’t know anymore. I’m just. Tired. sorry 4 anybody who sees this blog. 

I spiral often.