bob loblah - blog #8 11/1 ━━ . °‧ (:-þ)

finally november ii caanntt wait for christmas duddee i actually love christmas i mean i think i love all holidays equally but christmas is less stressful than halloween and thanksgiving and stuff. my halloween was okay. on the 30th i went to a local show @ a skatepark then on the 31st i went to another local show in a backyard and i knew like  1 person at the skatepark show who was playing with one of the bands and  1 person at the backyard show becasue im friends with them. kinda  more like aqatinces tbh but only because we havent reeally bonded that much yet. i mean what tf even qualifies someone to be a friend vs aquatince? ? 

on the ride to and from the backyard show my dad lectured me about socializing and shit and like yes i know how to socialize im sorry im genuinely such a fuck up like im trying so hard and it feels like im stuck on a fucking like idk rotten tomato museum stage as a humiliating exhibit and everyone is watching me and secretly throwing their last tomatoes at me and like idfk anymore. im so stressed ive been kinda taking it out on my dad and kinda other ppl. like i can socialize and i think i do a pretty decent okay job at it. the only thing i have trouble with is actually walking up to people. but  im working on it. ive made maybe like 2 friends at school and 2-3 aquatinces or more like 3-4 idk. 

im seeing kurt travis live onnnn the 5th so im really excited for that. god that reminds me just the other day i was yapping to my dad abt how excited i was for aftershock 2027 and dgd13 and dgd 2027 tour and ptv new album and mcr new album and eidola and secret band might release some cds and yadda yadda and he goes off on me abt why cant i be excited about family and what about family and family famliy family like  i do respect my family?? cant i be excited about something that brings me more joy than anything else could tho?? like god forbid a guy is happy about something not involving you smh. 

hhhm what else has been happeniiinggg in my life.  oh i just realized like 10 minutes ago that the date of your blogs isnt saved anywhere?? like the specific day and time. i thought it was. so   im gonna start doing that now and also update some of my previous ones to fix that. god my memory is a big trashy here cus i yap on twitter and then here and sometimes to my online friends in our server of like 4 ppl and then i get it all mixed up cus i also have a way too vivid imagination i cant tell whats real or not sometimes. i have PE tomorrow im not excited @ all but then i have tuesday off for voting day. on tuesday i wanna go outside and walk around or something literally do anything to get out of the house. for some reason ive been so pissed off at home lately. my dad can be really annoying sometimes like hes the type of person to be obnoxious just to get a reaction out of you. also im getting so tired of having a 3rd person live with us (my uncle). not that hes a bad roomate or anything but i miss having privacy like i cant even be loud and stuff when my dad leaves cus my uncles home and my walls r thin asf and ppl upstairs and outside could probably hear me. 

im not getting addicted but every night ive been getting high and its actually been helping me sleep and stuff. my 5g yart is still really full so it should last me a while. i dont like smoking carts or blunts or anything that much since i get  kinda worried about it affecting my voice and lungs and stuff but the edibles i have are like all around 1000mg i think (most in bags of two so 500mg each) so they should also last me a while. i also have like a pack of 15 800mg shroom tabs but i know nothing abt shrooms like i do with weed and stuff sooo we rawdogging. maybe ill try some tonight or like at least do some research.

okkkkkkkkkkkkaaaayyyyyyy goodbye everybunny im gunna go play guitar and bass now cus im freaking bored and then play video games after and maybe draw and watch movies i want to be productive. guhdbye have awesome days/nights 

ps. title of this blog is a reference to a dance gavin dance vid from like 15 years ago of matt writing "bob lohblah" on a window