Body Mindset

I feel fat. I felt like that before but it been growing lately. I always told myself. 2000s skinny is over. Everyone likes being chubby or like chubby girls. My friends say it looks good on me. My mom doesn’t mind or tease me about it. But my sister doesn’t. My favorite jeans are tight now. I thought they shrink and then my sister said “you getting weight?” Like fuck you :(. All because she lost her baby wight is a cheerleader she feels SOOOO skinny and she’s not. (Not that much.)  when I want fast food she says something about my weight. I wanna eat to things? “I get less calories anyways.” I see so many emos being skinny! And I’m so fucking jelly! I like my body. But sometimes I fucking hate my chub in tight shirts, of my “love handles.” And god forbid I hate seeing Jean lines on my stomach. Then. The fear. Of my fav 2000s shirts being to small for me. I hate this. And don’t feel like eating this summer….