I was in a friend group with a bunch of people from about 7th grade (some less people some more) until about early sophmore year. Due to mental issues I isolated myself up until the beginning of this year besides my boyfriend and I hung out with them the other day and realized.... wow... this is totally why I dont hang out with them
numbering them based off relevancy for consistency
this one girl (person 4), she looked at someone we all used to knew (ill call him person 3) that now doesnt hang out with them (probably for teh same reason as me) and said "wow, his new hair cut is so fucking ugly" uhm WHAT? like what the fuck is wrong with you. so uncalled for?
her boyfriend (person 5) is chill though, its still weird how he doesn't day anything but he doesn't fuel it, just ignore it
there's these two people, I won't name names.... but if you have my spacehey account added you might know them.....
person one, I used to date them. and he was my first boyfriend. one big thing im still peeved about is he would NOT hold my hand in public. PERIOD he would get so upset at me when I would try and never spoke to me about how he doesnt want to. He just refused. Only after he said he didn't want to. Along with fhe fact he broke up with me because I had an eating disorder. Which yes I can understand how that is hard but I never pushed my disorder onto him. I ate around him and would not engage in disorder things around him or even TALK about my disorder. But he still said I was "too much". but me being "too much" was just me being underweight. I can understand how dealing with an ed-d partner is hard. "he must've been really worried and cared about you alot" I genuinely dont think so.. he treated me like shit and I was still friends with him for a year or so after because I felt so alone and all his friends were mine. I didn't have any of my own
the second person, a fairly new one. Im cool with her I dont have anything to say EXCCEPT..... she made up a rumor that I cheated on my ex WITH my current boyfriend. one NO?? I didn't date my current one for like EVER because of not wanting it to seem like that. I dated him 5 months after I got broken up with. also current boyfriend is a DOUBLE U because I am open about my ed with him and he doesnt think im too much. I didn't remeber she did this until the other day when talking to a friend of mine
there's this boy (person 6) I knew who hangs out with them. He's cool and I dont have an issue with him and I see him as a little brother. He's a year younger than us but he mostly wanders rather than hanging out with them
i havent sat with any of these people in SO long bur the other day i did with my boyfriend
anyways I was speaking to ANOTHER friend at the football game. She said she always feels so left out when hanging out with them and I invited her to sit with me and my boyfriend. I felt the same way. She said "I know [person one] said he didn't like [person 2] but I swear he does. It was just like you and him before. [person 2] always gets so jealous when I hang out with them too. Everyone has their person in that group and I feel so unwelcome" and it just broke my heart
I know exactly she she feels :((
as mych as self isolation during sophomore year ruined my mental health, I do believe it genuinely helped me so mcuh in the long run. I've been feeling happier than ever with my jazz combo/band friends and boyfriend.
I guess psa if people make you feel like shit then just cut them off
if interested more in my life dk let me know... I think its pretty boring but this is an interesting thing that I was reminded of
maybe ill post old spacehey blogs on here
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