Boy problems are over, its all over.

I’m so done.

Maybe its my own fault but i dont really know what to say here, we were getting along fine and things were starting to actually go somewhere for once. He told me that he struggles to bind with people especially the way he did with me and that he was scared he’d be a bad boyfriend and never spend time with me if we dated because he’s such a recluse. But then all of a sudden my best friend, who hated him and said he was ugly is now daring him. 

i feel so empty and i just dont know if theres any point in trying anymore. I spent the last of my energy at least trying and its all over again. He was the only one i actually bonded and fit in with.