Break up

Yeah so my gf and I have been together for one week and I broke up with her. 

During a panic attack, actually. I can't even tell what triggered it, my mental health is deteriorating with every passing day and this is what it led to. 

She didn't seen very upset. Just said that as long as we can stay friends she's happy, because she just wants me in her life in some way. I explained to her what happened and apologized like a thousand times but told her I'm absolutely not healthy to be with, and she accepted it and said I didn't have to be sorry because it wasn't my fault. 

We're on friendly terms now and she said she'll give me some space to figure things out. 

Apart from that I left the house for the first time since last Friday to go to the store for a monster and onigiri today. Then a second time to get some food for my brother and I since we're home alone, going back home with a bag filled with ready-to-eat-meals, earphones in and a hoodie on made me feel like one of those teenagers in movies with abusive parents. Which, I mean. Close enough to my situation. 

Tomorrow I'm gonna finally send out my request for my proof of lack of crimes or wtv it's called in english and I'm gonna stop procrastinating on it like I have been so far for two months. I just need to get it, pay the 13€ fee, send it away with my signed contract and I'll have my first job as a tutor. 15€/h which is really good. I need to stop procrastinating on it though before my employer decides against hiring me. 

Ill also start some fanfic I think. Also two characters in genshin that I really like are getting buffs. So I need to grind to get as materials for them as possible so I can get them! I've been at the game for a few hours today.. 

That's all for today. 

-Angel