breaking point (poem) TW

im at a breaking point 

all i do is disappoint 

i act cold, push people away, they hate me 

that would've happened anyway 

that's how everything ends 

it starts off great, i let my guard down 

i destroy everything in my reach 

and i'm left all alone 

i deserve to drown 

no, i deserve worse 

since i know this, i'll be the first one to take action 

maybe then i won't let everybody down 

i've become a different person 

that's what always happens 

maybe it's not that i've changed, but that i've stopped pretending to be someone i'm not 

because i'm a monster

yet people fail to believe me until i commit monsterous acts 

here's the funny part! they act shocked! 

i warned them and warned them, they denied reality 

it's their fault then, really 

once it happens, they blame me, they threaten me, they assault me 

well deserved, i guess, but i told them so 

i can't handle people anymore