my friends are all saying im self absorbed and have a high ego... even though i dont. I'm nothing but nice and playful with them, but it seems no matter what I do, I push my friends away from their perspective. No one responds to my msgs fast; no one seems excited to have me around. I made this account to make friends online, but I ended up being a dork too scared to message anyone that seemed cool. and im scared that even when i do end up doing that ill be too lame for anyone to find interesting. I'm failing math, and my parents are pissed, weed pens are ruining my lungs, and I don't care about life anymore, bro. I thought I wanted a gf, but now I realize I just need someone who likes me for me, doesn't need to be romantic. I'm gonna look for someone that I can peel back all my layers and they'll still wanna hang with me despite my flaws. I think that's why I like animals. They appreciate you just for you, because to them you are extraordinary. Simple creatures with capacity for love and appreciation, while humans are complicated. Hateful. Jealous. Maybe I should have been an animal, my only worries being food and shelter.
My "friends" just say get a gf, and I don't really want that. All they talk about is the next girl they have their eyes on. I'm such a chud I just want a connection. They say it's easy, yet only 1 of them has a gf. I would say im a decent looking guy, but idk. People say i look serious. Whenever im happy, people still ask if im okay in the hallways... ask me whats wrong or whatever. I wish i still had my therapist. he was a condescending fucker anyway, always talking about its only in your head or did they say that explicitly? fuck that guy. I also hate empathetic people. "im so sorry" why the fuck are u sorry u didnt do anything? do u just want me to shut up? Hate those fuckers. Im getting mean now. It's just everyones so fucking fake no one tells me shit about anything. Everybody tells me nothing cuz i dont ask nothing much really of anybody. No ones gonna read this cuz as i said i dont have any friends on here yet. its wtv, its just like real life. At school i got everyone, when i get home alluva sudden my phone is empty. as per usual.
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Dookie
Nah don't worry bruv i read it
I think what you need is friends who actually match you properly, sure it's nice to have someone care about you enough to be a friend, but a close one stays forever because you have the same standards in the relationship. I wouldn't worry so much about people who don't even understand your boundaries. Keep your head highÂ