chores

pacing in circles to do more tasks even though i wanted to fall asleep and i nearly passed out trying to get to the stupid washer but its ok as long as you get your fucking beauty sleep or whatever

i'm so tired so tired so tired but it's really immature for me to want sleep. or anything at all. why do i even want??? it's fucking selfish. but only for me. i only feel this about me

i need a long long break but nobody else in this system knows how to run it. found that out last night. it sucks. i keep going not because i enjoy it but because there is truly no alternative other than ceasing entirely which is quite the painful experience.

jsut ignore my rambling i get sad every night anyway. really. it's almost midnight. i want sleep. i'll be better tomorrow or in a week in a month once i leave here when i find them or when i get the money once i'm onstage or any other time but the current moment of observation. 

this is stupidly long for no reason lol -sunny