Chronic pain rant

For around the past 9 or 8 years, I have been living life suffering from chronic pain. The worst part is I thought it was normal. It’s been so long and normalized for me that even now I find it difficult to believe that it isn’t normal to have chronic pain. It started when I was around 10 years old and whenever I tried to talk to someone about they would just brush me off. They would say that was just growing pains and that it was normal. So I just sucked it up and tried to go about life because no one believed me or would just say it was apart of growing up. Come to find out that I was actually developing scoliosis and I only found out when I was around 15-17. Then I learned that it wasn’t normal to always be in some type of pain. The thing is after that whenever I tried to talk to the doctors about the types of pain or how bad it was, it was like they never believed me and just brushed it off. That or they just ignore what I said and ask my parents what they thought about it. It just sucks because why would I tell my parents about when I was in pain if I was always in some type of pain. It was also like no one believed I could experience pain in any place other than my back. It just gets on my nerves, because even if I did tell them what would they even be able to do about it. I have to live the rest of my life worrying about flare ups, being careful of triggers, trying to identify triggers for flare ups, and hoping I don’t wake up in too much pain the next day. It’s just a sucky feeling.