College Life as Dunce

My course that I choose from is Conservatory of Music, Pedagogy in Guitar.
I know it's useless, but either way I will get some opportunities or go broke in the end.
But I still kinda wanna learn more regardless.

I had already expected it to be the worst days of my life.
But I had NEVER get to taste the chaos unfolding it in my life until NOW.

Even as a freshman, I am definitely not going to enjoying it, but to be honest. I don't consider my colleagues as friends, they are friendly but I don't have a deeper connection with them that counts as friends. 

For a first week, there's already the problem of trying to figure out which classes I should go because in my white form it says TO BE ANNOUNCED. Like what the fuck, I really wanna kill myself because of that atrocious problem that I was trying to take care off, until it was resolved within in two week. Like I thought I'd be dead with the missing assignments but the first week was literally just an Orientation.

There was one time I ended up crying at the jeepney because there as this one task I have given to and I did not turned in because I lost my phone.
And apparently most of the minor subject had online classes and it's a pain in the ass of constantly trying to constantly find a strong connection.

And there is also one time that I went to an Emo Night Cafe and I did not enjoy it (but that's another story later on)

To be honest, I'm still lazy but I did my best that I can sometimes, the only motivation to pass the assignment is basically working on it from 1 - 2 hours before the deadline. I don't know why but it's more motivating in my opinion... And of course... the tuitions. I hope my mom can sustain it, atleast she's supporting me and I am very grateful for it despite that I am financially conscious. 

Mid Terms are coming up this week, I hope I'm still alive.. ;-;