I wont be the first to say how much I despise college. I'm pretty sure it's just an issue with the specific one I go to and one of my professors, but I am TIRED. Sick and TIRED!!! Never in my life have I ever felt less inspired to write anything, my english class has destroyed any urge to really sit down and finish something good. Everything I create is rushed and uninspired. Even my art. I cannot stand this place. I learn absolutely nothing, I get no enjoyment out of it, good grades don't even make me feel good because I just get annoyed thinking about what a hassle it was to get some bullshit out. I just sit through my lectures and do my assignments the day they're due and move on trying to do something.
The forced proximity to other people is another thing I find to be very irritating. Nobody at my campus holds my interest for a friendship and most of the conversations I have fall apart because I am just so bored of it. You could say I'm depressed, that's true, I know that, but I know what depression disinterest feels like versus just straight up boredom. Maybe I'm too stubborn to change anything, but I still feel like I can be sick of everything. I just need to get through this shit and get my degree and move on.
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