I can understand, and i think the constant stress from masking can def cause memory issue, I've had a feeling for so long that i wasn't real, and thinking to hard about it makes it worse., feeling 9 in an 18 year old's body. constant masking could be the cause of this, not knowing who we are (im not diagnosed, but heavily speculating, trying to get to a doc) also, yeah, being on constant autopilot, being online, or in the house all day, def aids with memory issues, or the not feeling real, its very important that we find ways to ground ourselves, even I'm still having a hard time learning to do that. being isolated or on constant autopilot can cause derealization type symptoms.
And please remember, we are still very young, of course we haven't lived yet, it took me some time to realize that im not running out of time just yet. you are not useless or stupid. you are not hopeless. most people don't find meaning to their lives thill they turn 30!!
(hopefully this can help)
thank u so much, sometime i feel like im crazy n knowing that som1 else understands or can relate really helps n yea i think i want to try to hang out more w my friends n been trying to remind myself to unmask (which is so hard, like y does no one ever talk about how hard it is to try n stop a habit ive been doing subconsciously my whole life like masking😭) im glad i still am towards the beginning of life bc i forget that this isnt the end n there is still more years of my life to grow n live n experience things
exactly! no one ever talks about it, which is why i think its so difficult to unmask, cause when you do people dont/refuse to understand. (or people just down right dont believe you. i.e. my own family)
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thank u so much, sometime i feel like im crazy n knowing that som1 else understands or can relate really helps n yea i think i want to try to hang out more w my friends n been trying to remind myself to unmask (which is so hard, like y does no one ever talk about how hard it is to try n stop a habit ive been doing subconsciously my whole life like masking😭) im glad i still am towards the beginning of life bc i forget that this isnt the end n there is still more years of my life to grow n live n experience things
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exactly! no one ever talks about it, which is why i think its so difficult to unmask, cause when you do people dont/refuse to understand. (or people just down right dont believe you. i.e. my own family)
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