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The joke about taking advantage of you is disgusting, and you shouldn't feel forced to do intimate acts. Fuck him, he treated you horrible but still feeling attracted to him to some degree is normal, I hope you heal. Stay safe! |
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I had a similar experience to this, except it was online and he had mentally screwed me over more times than I could count. He would threaten me and worse. It lasted about 4 years until I eventually felt numb, hated him and left. There would be days where the smell of food would make me sick and I could only eat toast and food with hardly any flavor because I felt so sick. I had been ridden with anxiety that would last for days, sleepless nights. It gets better I promise. I played a lot of Tetris and music helped me recover a lot. I am still affected by him though, it's really really rough. It does get better, find a close friend to lean on. I had a friend with me through it all and that really helped. |