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I'm sorry you're feeling this way, and it does suck to feel like an outsider when you're doing your best to fit in especially with a particular niece. 

I used to dress goth, I'm still a bit into the goth scene myself. I can say that from a semi-goth perspective, when you don't align on big things like politics it can make dating very difficult. In todays worlds of politics and how things are politically, politics are more than ever a stressful thing that people put onto relationships. That's not to say that all people are stressful about politics, because they aren't. I've met plenty of people from basic, to alt, to goth, to punk, etc. who date outside of their circle. However, it really depends on the person and their values, as well as your values and what you misalign about. 

I definitely can understand being bitter about only interacting through academic and clinical settings, however as you age a lot of the time the only time you make friends is through an academic setting. Once you hit college sure you may expand once you go to bars and make some friends, go to parties, etc. if that's your thing but in my own experience I really only spoke to people at college. That's because, similar to high school, you're all packed in a room with one another for possibly hours on end. However, you are bound to make some connection with some great people who share similar interests. 

That's not to say there isn't a way to make friends as you age, because there definitely is! Plenty of things to do, people to meet, places to explore, etc. It's just finding the things you like to do and getting out there and doing it. You'll interact with more people and find more people who fit your values, beliefs, political standings, etc. by doing that. 

Making friends and finding your niche that you fit into takes time, it takes getting out there and doing things to connect with others. For example if you like art, a wine and paint is commonly hosted at art places (sometimes for free or for a small fee) that you can go and make connections with people. Going to museums, music shows, and even public pokemon matches at card shops is a great way to make friends and connections. It'll help you feel less like an outsider and connect with others more on a deeper level. 

I'm sorry you're feeling this way, it does suck. However, I can say that you will find your person, you will find your group of people that make you feel less alone, it just takes time. 

Sending you lots of positive energy!

If the only female interaction you had was thru academic and clinical settings, you'd be bitter, too