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The dissociation sounds like it could be drug induced. If you are doing psychoactive stuff like weed or other psychs I would lay off them. Some people get those dissociative disorders from that, especially if they do too much. Also that will help you take the initiative to fix your own life. If you want your parents to help you apply to college, do you want them to help you study too? What about helping you apply for jobs? Or getting that promotion?

Part of growing up is realizing that you have to take the reigns and your own life into your own hands. If you don't like the way things are going in your life then it's up to you to put in the effort to improve it.

you are seen here. i resonate with what you feel, as a loner myself. I wish I could give you a hug, friend