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i don't think you drive people away. of course it would depend on the type of person that they are, but i think you hold so many cognitive distortions that you yourself behave in self sabotage and cut off friendship. you seem to participate in excessive self blame and you do seem to analyze every micro-expression and body movement... you know, i'm glad you're aware about the fact that you over-think. 

you know, there is a way to actually analyze people. perhaps the way i did it was observing social interactions and learning a little bit about psychology , but for me that took months, and at least a year. 

you seem to really care about the way you treat people, so i believe you aren't inherently bad. i know some people can be driven away by negativity and such. so probably start taking care of yourself first! not for others, but for yourself. i don't think you can love others til you do the same for yourself, and people loving you won't achieve healing 

you're a human being too and you DO matter