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Okay, I’ll briefly describe my own experience. If you state your needs and the facts, you’re not portraying yourself as a victim. Always stick to the facts. If you don’t feel good and people are objectively treating you badly, that’s the reality. If they don’t lift you up and you can’t be yourself around them—not even with your friends—you need to avoid them. Detachment and solitude are the hardest, but most important, steps. When you’re alone, you’ll find yourself—even if it’s hard. And then, at any moment, you might happen to meet someone with whom you truly click without any effort. You won’t have to pretend to be someone else or put on a show—just be yourself. Look for that. There won’t be many people like that, and it’s not your fault; true friendship is always a rare treasure. Larger communities—like classes, etc.—will fade away sooner or later anyway, once they’re no longer bound by a common goal, city, etc.

.You seem like the kind of guy I used to be—and still am—who craves honesty and wants not only to give to the relationship but also to receive something in return. And that’s completely normal—and that’s how it should be; you don’t need a therapist for that. When I didn’t feel comfortable in a group—which was usually the case—I didn’t care about them. In fact, even if it hurt a little at first, sooner or later I came to enjoy being different. I don’t want to write a novel—though I could—but I’ll keep it short. If someone doesn’t add anything to your life, cut them out. You can even delete them. Focus on the few, on new people, and on yourself, and everything will be fine. You can also look for offline hobbies—you’ll find more genuine people there than in online groups. And avoid trying to please people unnecessarily. Just be yourself. It's hard, but the people who love you will love you best that way. Even I still have to learn this.