concept of missing people

I feel like that I don't quite miss people how I think they want to be missed.
Me missing someone is not a loud constant reminder like for most people. For me it's just like a soft reoccuring thought of missing their existence, specific energy.
I think people have a specific unique energy that radiates around them. I can't really describe it. It's just simply something I feel around people.

I feel like for most people missing someone is like a constant loud reminder, but not with words, with feelings.. Like a specific longing for someone.

For me it's a rare occurence when I feel actually missing someone clearly. And very often for me it's just a soft pull, not something loud and harsh feeling in me. Funnily this is when I randomly pop up in my friends dms like "hey, is your existence still around?".

Vivian