CONFESSION!: I made a mistake...

Yk when you are first starting highschool and you search up tips how to survive highschool? And the #1 thing they ALWAYS say is "NEVER DATE A SENIOR OR JUNIOR." ........ Yeah... So uh. I did that. And before this bullshit I was like the quiet weird kid. So like... I instantly became the main attention of the entire school gossip and now EVERYONE knew who I was. And I ALWAYS kept up a low profile. Ima just call him david. No, fuck keeping his name and identiy private. His name was Henry. He was in my science class cuz he was failing and we sat next to each other... Now lemme say. NEVER EVER sit a girl who has never felt love in her life and a peverted older guy next to each other because that is a EXTREMELY dangerous combo... So, my best friend and me thought he was supa cool because he was a punk dude. And I was like DAYM. So, she gave me his account. And we started to talk. AFTER TWO FREAKING DAYS. He confessed and said how he "Wanted to marry me." Now lemme say, I was stupid asf because I always felt that I needed someone to be complete in life. I thought he was my life. Henry would treat me like a princess all the time, text me good night and how he misses me, tells me how much he loves me, and so much more. But then. He started to get peverted asf but I couldn't see this, so I kept talking to him. And then somehow EVERYONE KNEW. I think he told some people??? Idk. But it was on ppls stories, notes, in their groupchats... Like I was the spotlight. And trust me I am NOT seeking my 15 minutes of fame. I rather stay in the audience. But he kept telling me "Oh its gonna be okay." "This will end in a week." Fun fact. It didnt. (Btw he plays football.) So, one day. he manipulated me into inviting him in my house. I took him to my bedroom and uhhh... Lowk almost died. (He tried to choke me when I tried to refuse his perverted ass.) And yah I got traumatized. I told the school and the cops and he got expelled. (THANK GOD.) The thing is... EVERYONE FUCKING BLAMES ME FOR MY OWN FUCKIN RAPE. Like, I lost so many friends because I was "refusing help." COMING FROM A WANNABE ALT GIRL THAT IS EXTREMELY PRIVILGED?? LIEK WHAT??? Nobody in my school has NEVER experinced rape or grooming before if they are saying its MY FAULT??? So i learned. That if your alt or weird out of society. Society will ALWAYS blame you. Even for your own rape. What a terrible world we live in. I hope he gets charges on him too for this shit. And btw... IM NOT HIS FIRST VICTIM.