counselor issues...

so like im trans and aroace and all that and my parents aren't supportive AT ALL (and i've gotten into several arguments over it with my mom) and so obviously this has kind of affected my mental health so now im doing counselling and im really trying to make it work and stuff but the problem is that my counsellor was picked out by my parents so ive been really worried about bringing it up (which means we've been talking about a bunch of stuff that's cool but not really super problematic) and last meeting i finally brought it up (we decided to talk about family life) and the way she was talking about it makes me think this is going to end badly :( like first of all she was using sexuality and gender interchangeably (which confused me for a sec but whatever) then she started talking about in the UK with them finding out that transitioning "makes things worse" and idk where that came from but its not true?? i mean i might be wrong in assuming that but im pretty sure that isnt right AT ALL and that detransitioners are a tiny percentage and that detransitioners who actually disliked the transition are also a tiny percentage but i cant remember where that comes from so if im wrong about that im sorry-- but anyway she brings all that up and i just know that its a bad sign. and she asks me to explain my gender feelings and i think i did ok but like idk if any of it made sense??? and we decided to start meeting every other week instead of every week so now i have more time to prepare but also more time to be anxious about it :/ and im worried I'm gonna have to try and find a way to validate my identity again and its just so tiring going through it with my mom i just don't wanna do it with someone who's more stranger than anything else... im just really wishing that id been able to get a counsellor who accepts queer people so i could actually talk through my issues without worrying about being invalidated or told "those feelings are important theyre there because of a need but you were made a girl..." :(

anyways i don't really know what to do about it because id really like to get a bunch of stuff to prove that trans people and transitioning are cool and awesome just in case but idk if that's a good idea and its just really discouraging to deal with all of this :/

hope everyone else is having a good day and stuff, srry to be a downer lol