Cousin Visiting Update

So, if you didn't see my last entry, I have a cousin visiting from out of town who's been angry with me for a couple years.  I was really anxious about it, but now that she's here I've calmed down a LOT!  It is a bit tense and awkward, and she hasn't really talked to me much, but my mum and sister did come over to visit her (I live with my aunt) so that's probably why honestly.  I have tomorrow off work and she'll be here then, not sure if my aunt is going to work, but we'll probably hang out a bit.

I'm a bit scared that she's going to want to have a serious conversation, which, while I might not be emotionally prepared for, it's not really my place to decide when/if we have this conversation as I was the one in the wrong between us (I could make a whole separate post explaining the lore there, but tl;dr is that i ran away when I was 18 and everyone was super scared for a few weeks when it happened and it definitely left some trauma).

So yeah, the visit is going better than my anxious brain assumed it would go, I'm really just trying to stay out of the way as much as I can and let her decide how much time she actually wants to spend around me since I know everyone's still pretty messed up about the whole thing.  

That's all for now, goodbye!!