Crying pt2

In one of my last blogs I was commenting on how I haven’t cried recently despite being one of the worst years of my life. One of the comments on the blog suggested that I should at least try to cry. So now I’m here in my bedroom listening to music and I forgot what song it is but now I’m having the sudden feeling to cry, and thinking about the comment on the last blog I try to get myself to cry, but no matter how hard I try I just can’t. I’m afraid that if I don’t cry all my pent up emotions will have me do something I might regret… suicide maybe…..